i was actually dreading this week, didn't even know i was capable of listening to so many talks, but the most worrying thing this week were results. i checked my email the day after they were released, but one of them was still pending since i had a supp. then i didn't check until end of the week even though someone told me all the pending stuff was finalised. didn't check because: 1. i never want to get my results back 2. reception, well mainly 3G at the camp was pretty bad. and part of the talk that night was something about your identity, so i was thinking, if i do fail, well my marks in the long term don't define who i am, and i'll just take an extra year to graduate. also was talking to some upper years on what gen ed to do and what stuff to study next sem if i failed all the pre-requisites for next sem.

i can't believed i passed even though i technically didn't. i don't what else to say but i am very grateful and thankful that i can continue to study next sem. i probably rant too much, but i'm pretty sure since i failed my mid sem for optics, they didn't offer me a supp for finals. i guess i could say i'm blessed in that i was the only one in the grade who had a special consideration impose a supp exam (not sure what happened to other people who applied for special consideration...) still had a supp for my practical, and i guess that turned out alright. well i think i was the only person, since in a massive announcement she said only one person didn't get a supp still had pending result status...don't think it's something to be proud of or to boast of, just they were kind enough to pass me. my mark was actually a credit which shows that in normal situations, they can still fail you if you get a credit/distinction since a core component wasn't passed....definitely will work even harder next sem. this sem was all about "please give me a supp" even though i studied hard. can't afford to get any supps next sem. if you don't attend a supp you fail (which happened to a few people in the year above me). but i won't be here during supps, so i have to make sure i pass every essential component.

this year they had gradings on moodle to tell you where you did better/worse/failed in theory or prac. previous years didn't get that, they only got a mark, and if you failed, you didn't know which component let you down.

and super happy i passed visn. don't think i'll be able to repeat that subject...must have guessed a lot of the MC right...but calculating marks, and i literally just passed my finals...optm and visn aren't scaled ): unlike physiology which scaled super high since i'm pretty sure i bombed out in half of the test, and all those pop up lab quizzes where i got 3/10 etc...next sem i won't work as hard on phsl. that's what i did last year in chem sem 1, but sem 2 scaling didn't help...idk, just really need to prioritise.

still have not filed away anything since exams. it's just all dumped into one "done" pile after each final. mainly because i still needed it for supps, but i really need to re study everything the weekend before uni starts again. doesn't help that i borrowed some books from the library which i intend to somehow finish before uni starts...but it's a series that i started before yr11, and it just so happened that book no. 2,3,4,5 were at the library, so decided to borrow them, since there's only about 2 copies of each in total in the hills libraries. and since when did the library cards turn from green to orange/white? still prefer my older style.

to other news, my mum went with a friend to costco and got himalayan pink salt! it's cheaper than getting it from coles and it comes with a grinder, but still not as cheap as those markets...ah, wanted to go to one, but these holidays have just flown by.

creme caramel from costco.

my mum's friend shouted us half a pack. so glad she didn't give us the whole pack. pleaseee don't buy it. i have a high sugar tolerance, but this is just super sweet. that caramel is enough for three individual custard desserts imo. if i have time, i'm just going to make the custard myself and use the caramel from this and put onto it. i know there's supposed to be a pool of caramel around it, but i think the proportions are distorted. i've been wanting to make so many things since last year December, but i somehow don't have time to make them ):