after the horrible mid sems on thurs, i said i would study. have a whole list of stuff to do...

i've just been worried sick over last week's exam. in one of our subjects, it's divided into three strands, and in one of those strands its divided into two again, and one of that subject's subjects mid sem, apparently you have to get over 50% to be able to sit the final exam. but the most annoying thing is that to pass the subject you have to pass everything in the strand...and argh, i just hope i can get over 50%, i don't want to repeat a year just because of one failed mid sems, which in itself is 40%, it's half of one strand, and one strand is 1/3 of the subject, so it's not worth very much, but you have to pass it to even be able to sit finals. and if you can't even sit the final exam, well you have to repeat...

and i feel sick thinking about it.

which is why my massive list of things to study for after the break and assignments and readings and things to catch up on has been neglected...

and i have been binge watching. i got given the 1st season of suits, and finished it in a day...and already onto the 2nd season...also binge eating. bbq the other night, ate so much meat i just felt so over fed...then last night our neighbours invited us over for dinner (first time). they're malay, and even though i can't really eat spicy stuff, the curries etc smelt so good! and malay desserts with those panda crepe/rolls that i saw on mkr a while ago and craved, well they were good as well. someone also made durian puffs (apparently i used to love durian when i was 5, then hated it, and still do, but that puff had a hint of durian which i could handle...) and then other malay goodness since they invited their malay friends. and over the last few days, i ate a crazy amount of stuff i shouldn't eat... i think it's pretty cute, since there was a mum's table, a dad's table, and the  "kids" table in the lounge room. most of the kids were either graduating or worked a few years already...

i'm only allowing myself to see one movie. everyone wants to go out, but i need this week to catch up/start on assignments...they just expect so much from us...combined with being sucked into suits. suits was supposed to be my thing i watched after glee, since glee is actually going pretty bad right now. don't get me wrong, i love watching it being set in NYC, but the plot is kinda getting ridiculous. i started following glee around the end of season 3, before i watched it whenever it was on tv, and i was going to start on suits since it's end of season 3 now...

i was so motivated into doing work right after my mid sems on thurs, but watching stuff does not help ))):