stressed and i don't have exams

heart attack.

about:
1. scholarships. its sucks how i'm the first one in my family to do this, and i just have to really on people/researchhh.
ahhh, freaking out.
can't finish in two weeks.
ahhh.
2. sorting out photos in folders ahhh. i'll do more of this in my free tomorrow.
3. meritsmeritsmerits and other stamps. that's allll i've been thinking about the whole day, 20 merits in 3 days..? i think there is hardly any chance ):

i don't even have time to blog about the weekend, and tomorrow i won't be at home from 8am-10pm.
i feel more stressed now than before trials (thus, i failed trials)
actually, i finally didn't fail ext 1 eng, but no full mark creative like last year ):

you know, if you get a smart person to sit ALL OF THEIR EXAMS IN ONE DAY, and then me to sit one exam that day, that smart person will still beat me in all my exams because they are naturally smart, and my brain doesn't work that way. it's like my brain has a "threshold" and when increase the intensity (aka my effort i put in) nothing happens to my brain since it's just not naturally smart (tried to incorporate phys photoelectric effect...)