18

feels no different.
too busy worrying about failed exams and not enough time to study for next one.

i feel like an olympian, well a "failed" olympian, thus i can relate to steve hooker/ Mitchell diving guy who trained so hard w/ lots of expectations to come first but missed out on finals/winning.
well, i haven't come first in anything, nor do i plan to since my brain isn't capable, but it's all that effort you put into studying/preparing has "gone down the drain" since you can't do anything well in an exam.
i don't think i can repeat what i did last year. i actually failed failed chem trial last year. grade average was under 80 (yet there were still 2/3 state ranks :S-something i won't understand), and i got under grade average, like way under but did ok in previous assessments so i didn't "die" in the end. but, my previous assessments have been -------------, and my trials will be more -----------------, so yeah, whatever scaling is in school exams, i hope it's for the better

in the last few days, i watched more olympics than in the whole first week...but i love rhythmic gymnastics  (:
i've never been a smart kid. like just then, the reply of closing ceremony on tv guide said 4 hours, but i'm like no, this morning it was only 3hours. and my bro's like "there's adds" and i'm like "oh yeah.." my brain functions really slowly,

the only good thing today was free boost (my fourth free one this year). i realised today that one of the boost got demolished, so i only could get max one free at towers...oh, and their bins have changed.
and cake (:

doesn't feel like it's my birthday today.
must continue to study.