HSC Jap Speaking and last middle of trials weekend update

SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED! i don't think i will bother recounting/don't have time.

main reason why i haven't been blogging is that i've been too depressed thinking about my atar/still not getting binomial/screwing up trials, and watching way too much olympics especially rhythmic gymnastics. i love it since it's like ballet but 100% more flexible, ribbon is my fav. they're also much skinnier than the typical artistic gymnast since they don't have to use a lot of muscle...i miss gymnastics...

so,
japanese speaking is one of those "life" experiences as a HSC students. my heart still pounds after the exam. it's so intense since you have to wait through different processes. i think i may have contradicted myself, except i hope i uncontradicted myself after...so glad i didn't get the jap man cause apparently he was really hard, got a jap woman which is good in a way cause they make the convo sound more authentic. well, that was 20 marks max gone which took 2.5 hours (you actually speak for 10mins)
another 20% of a HSC exam completed.
surprised at the variety of people who do jap, there were heaps of aussies and also curries. like the person in front of me was white, and the person behind me was a curry.

i've been reading sooooo much SMH london section. the jokes they have about the British are soooo funny. would share them but i feel so screwed. i was last minute hoping that reading newpaper would improve my improvisation when writing essays and improve exp problems a bit...i wonder if ext teachers allow for people to change from 3rd person to 1st person...or would they consider you stupid since you can't tell the difference....

2011 HSC 3U Maths WAS MIND BLOWING. i couldn't do half of it without looking at answers, which shows how screwed i am. the trial '11 was hard, but the hsc was even harder, yes i do agree with last year's yr 12 that the paper was really hard. my raw score would probs be 50%. even after looking at answers, it takes me a while to work out whats happening.

i know i won't be able to do the whole 3U paper, so i'm trying to focus more on phys, except i can't cram, so i just hope it "comes to me" in the exam.

my mum is more excited about my birthday than i am. i love birthdays, except i just feel so ceebs about this time.

</3 that mitchell from aus didn't make it to finals for diving, and it was his last dive that cost him his place, which is ironic since that last dive was that one in beijing which won him gold. i don't really care about hooker not being able to pole vault, be it also does suck to not jump once in a final.

what is more tiring: 50km walk, 10km swim, 42km marathon or triathlon? i don't think i even walk 50km in a half a month.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

4/7 written exams in three days. + 2 back to back jap speaking to come.
my neck, and hand hurts/aches. it was already hurting before...

maths was...let's just say i shouldn't have spent so much time memorising essays since i forgot some parts during the exam, i probs failed to answer the question...  it's worth so much in weightings...
going to drop 50+ ranks ))): and then come last. how shameful (?) would it be to not band 6 2U maths? everyone says 2U maths in general is "easy" obviously compared to 4U maths, but my brain is ever so slow and doesn't function during exam conditions.

i get sooooooooo distracted during an exam. it's really bad.

so i resorted into watching olympics. how cool for the GB brothers who won gold and bronze in the triathlon. i can't comprehend how they can continue to move at fast speeds for over 1.5 hours. well i haven't continually moved that much. even when training for swimming, you get little "break" and stuff, and the speed is so much slower compared to their fast, enduring speeds.

very unproductive night.

i knew they were going to do that for mod B, that's it why I HATE WRITING MODULE B ESSAYS. i actually like the novel, just not the essays that come with it

ahhh, 5 hours of exams is mentally draining. hand is dying.
yeah, i'm not going to aim high for jap, i've never actually been median. ): just tried to aim for accracy, but then there was stuff i didn't get in listening ))):

and now maths.
i feel under-prepared.
another thing which is un-crammble.

the last 50s of aus vs russia bball was so intense.

my expensive inkjoy uses up so much ink. it uses 3cm of ink for 3 essays, while the cheap kilometrico one is still going after 20 essays, and probs 10 past papers.

i kind of forgot i'm 18 next week, until boost reminded me about how i could get free boosts...but i have trials...

plan of attack:
A, B, C

A requires real memorising for essay to be effective.
B also requires memorising but can be told like a story, that's how i think about my mod B
C requires memorising, but i full cut down on this essay, so minimal words. you can kind of make stuff up if you forget stuff since it's going to be the last essay in the 2 hours, but my be on the verge of rambling so...

must write faster and answer the question.

why must jap be on the same day as English ))): but then, i don't know how to study for jap, it's like umat since it's an "aperture" test, as in for jap, it's the skills you develop overtime, so it's impossible to cram for jap, which unnerves me

this trial timetable is one of the worst timetable's i have ever had, wait, it is the worst, even HSC timetable is so much more happier

so athletics started yesterday which is good change in a way from swimming.

i can't believe we didn't get any individual gold, last time was 1976. man, we suck at swimming now, and to think that is our best sport atm....

just watched the triathlon, awww we were so close to getting gold, but in the last 200m, she fell a tiny bit behind which cost her 1st place, it was quite tension-ny...

watched too much tv.

can't memorise it ): the thing is, if i do any essay on the spot, i'm going to have a million expression problems

Trials

arghhhh...i feel disadvantaged ))):
i don't even have a sickness, the only "disease" is on my hand and not the inside, the most important thing in the exam...)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

yeah, this sucks.

i used to be able to write fast, but for these trials, i have to cut 200+ quality words.

i should have gone doctors earlier

i don't think i'll be able to memorise three essays...

if only my hand wasn't screwed up....

i can't believe i'm saying this but i am sick of watching swimming, and then the commentators talking about how australia has lost, then replaying previous swimming moments when we actually won something. the rare 25 min where i watch tv/eat, it's ALWAYS AN INTERVIEW OR MORE SWIMMING RACES OF MORE AUSTRALIANS LOSING. i need to see some synchronised diving! 

must memorise essays. screw perfecting it, memorising is more important atm.