5 weeks to go until I'm free. Well, realistically 6 weeks since I'll probably get a supp. I mean, I only know of one person previously who has never sat a supp before. Almost everyone in optom has sat a supp for either something stupid, generally were sick, or they were nice enough to give a second chance.

The stress is kicking in (who am I kidding, it kicked in years ago). Sometimes I don't know how I passed the really heavy content courses like therapeutics or disease (still slightly salty about that one particular lecturer who everyone still hates even now from the lower grades who teaches almost useless stuff...)

I wish my brain could focus. It's been so long since I've used my brain for memorising stuff...what's worse is when you never understood some concepts back in 3rd year, or forgot all your anatomy from 2nd year, or simple biology stuff in 1st year...

Today the people forgot to roster me on to see a patient, so ended up trying to study, but ahh, it's just so overwhelming. Like where to begin. I feel like I'm going to freak for another week before I can try to study/finish off my notes and reports.

Centre Week 4

I can't believe I survived a month of CFEH, from 8.30 starts to 5-7.30pm finishes 5 days a week. Surviving doing so many visual fields...It does help to live temporarily at Epping, so I can get to uni in about 1hr in the morning, and about 1.5hr back home, so no need to stress about buses, and traffic on the motorway and car accidents and running for buses. Thanks BW for making food for me, truly appreciate your help.

I still feel like I'm not learning as much as I should be at Centre. See interesting pathology, but after NYC, the pathology isn't as crazy here in Sydney lol.

Almost finished writing my reports now. So stressed since only 5 weeks left until orals, and no idea how to memorise 5 years worth of content. Like as some stage I guess I memorised it, but I feel like the older I get, the poorer my memory becomes, so I don't even remember the basics, which is really bad. I guess the scariest thing is if you do miss something irl and you do end up killing a patient (surprise, surprise, the eyes are linked to your brain and blood vessels, so anything in the body can affect your eyes, hence a 5 year degree...)

Can't believe tomorrow is my unofficial last day of work. It's been 5 years, and I even made it to the list of people who've worked there for 5 years at the back of the work magazine lol. I feel like the next 5 years would also fly by. It's slow and quick at the same time.

Stress is getting real. I'm just overwhelmed as to where to start studying, let alone even start memorising. That sick feeling in your stomach of failing....I guess I have to remind myself, no matter the outcome, it'll be ok.

EyeBall 2018

I can't believe it's already half way through my last rotation. Only 3 weeks to go before 3 weeks to cram for 5+ years of knowledge. Help. EyeBall was three weeks ago, but CFEH has been so draining with at least 8.30-5 everyday. Or sometimes say behind till after 6. Even though you're sitting there sometimes doing nothing is tiring. Also somehow squeezed time to visit a rotating restaurant at O Bar and Dining, and going up Sydney Tower. Not enough time to upload photos. Haven't even gone through my America photos yet...

Decided to still do this post, since did it for all the other EyeBalls. This year a person in the cohort pretty much single handedly did all the deco, and it was definitely lit for the theme 'A Starry Night'. There were like lit up fake cherry blossom trees, branches, and a massive Eyeball sign. Held at the Hilton this year, so fancy again. If we didn't have sponsors, the tickets would've cost so much (at $100 each they're still not cheap). There was one photographer who actually took decent pics (well not overly exposed), but the photobooth this year was pretty bad. Photos weren't focused at all, hence I think that's why they never uploaded the photoboooth pics, but I don't mind. I like the instant printouts.

Table

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Food was pretty nice (I think at this rate I have over 20 places to blog about in Sydney, and let's not get started about NYC, Melbourne etc where I had 6 meals a day...) Yeah, the food blogs and insta posts can continue after I graduate. Probs only rant here on random things in the next few weeks. I don't even have time to review this food lol. They only had one choice of dessert, would've been nice to have 2, but maybe they compromised that to choose more expensive entrees or mains..

not your traditional creme brûlée 

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BW finally debuts on my blog (after over a year lol)

One of my fav photos of us. Thanks for accompanying me this year (and driving me after I had over 4 glasses...) It's different this year since no going with the usual optom crew, but going with this one was super special. Thanks for all you do for me, and also letting me crash at your place to save about 45min-1hr of bus commutes. Much appreciation and thanks. So lucky to have you in my life. 

No time for food adventures since here on in it's all writing reports/preparing to be grilled and trying to squeeze study in.